Two different sides but one coin.

In my last post I promised I wud come up with something interesting and funny,but cudn help it & once again I'm writing about something I have always found very difficult,and those who will read, will find it not only boring but very boring.Let "US" give it a try.By "US" I mean,both of us..Me who is writing and you who is reading and getting bored.lolz.!

Im just trying to talk about the most difficult topic I can think of and pray,the one concerned needn't get worked up,if he doesn't like something in it.

When people generally talk to me,Who is he?How u met him?How u both have been going together?I tend to ignore them because I myself don't know why are we together.There is no answer to why I love him and if I try to find out,then there is no reason to it.People have made this world so commercialized that words like "love" and "friends" sound filthy at times.But lemme give it a try.

Everyone who knows us,including him thinks we are exactly same.But I would just count on.He an extrovert,great at socializing,true he can talk about anything and can make you laugh.He says he likes people who speak,are social animal,creative,intelligent and can flaunt it as well.I wonder what he saw in me,I don't have any of them in me.I'm an introvert,don't take me as a shy but whenever I open my mouth I may sound either diplomatic or just something which people can not decipher.Im terrible at socializing with people.In front of the crowd I would hardly speak,cz either I may not be having the knowledge of the subject or I may be in some other world,exploring the secrets of human psychology.I would hardly talk about things I know cos I think people either fail to understand or they act as if they are attentive and you sound so interesting.I wonder how many of them actually get into their head what others talk, so I decide being shut. Nor that I enjoy extroverts, and my guy who claims so much to be an extrovert I wonder how much he talks about himself. He would talk about everything else but he would hardly open his real self.Somewhere I feel even like me he’s trying to fit in this crowd, the crowd we both might be hating at some point of time, just that we have chosen different ways for that.

We both might be selfish in some way,but still we both wouldn't think "If am I happy with other" but rather we would be worried if he/she is happy with me.

I wouldn’t be able to write down what gets inside me when I am with him.I can fall off to sleep without going anything on mind,a peaceful sleep I wud be wanting from ages with only one feeling "He is with me".I can talk talk and talk for hours and more when he gets conscious about it.I smile when he gets irritated and then I would tease him all the more.I would fight,I would shout on him,would patch up.But the next morning I would surely eat his mind,how embarass did he feel,being with such a girl who jeers everytime.When he would praise on other girls,I wouldn’t feel angry but I would feel bad more thinking he isn’t happy with me. And I am sure he would feel the same, the only thing is I don’t praise on other guys neither on girls when I'm with him.

Generally it takes a few minutes or probably an hour to write something,but this I had been trying to write from the past three days.I don’t know what else about us, coming to think of it I don’t even want to know what’s between us, for all I know is that I love him, no matter what he does and no matter what I do in the outer world,he would be still there.

Long back he once told me, that the problems we have now are like small barriers and then there would be one day, the big day of our life as we call it, where the big refers to happiness. And so much like a fairy tale I would wait for that day to come, for all I know now is that I love him and he loves me too.

Watering the walls of indifference

I was wondering all through the night what should I do to let this time pass.I kept thinking and suddenly my thoughts turned to analyzing a crowd of people around.I remember all the happy and the sad moments I had spent with them,but today I'm more and more thinking about the dark side of these people and the reason which seems to be most certain is....One of them has cribbed badly.

I kept thinking whole night and lastly I developed a theory called "Leeches",basically a nomination for people like the one I encountered recently.These are the people who keep coming back to your life,no matter how much u want to get rid of them.They are like leeches, which would suck out your blood and happiness at the same time. Amazing is, these people were never bothered about you when you were there for them, the leech in them gets alive the moment you leave them, earlier I presume both of them were sleeping. By both I mean they themselves and even the leech. And silly is, these people know I might never forgive them and still they would come back for no reason at all. Leeches don’t have a spine? The more they come to me the more I hate them. Why can’t I forgive them?This doesn't mean that I havn't learned to forgive people.Will talk about those people too in the later half.At the moment lets talk about Leeches.I think,I have already talked a lot.lolz.!!

And certainly,people who are not Leeches,meant to be forgiven. :)

PS : Am I concerned...still thinking about Leeches?They may call me Indifferent but they should know ..I have always been WATERRING THIS WALL OF INDIFFERENCE & they never cared.